November 2011
i can tell that all my friends are getting annoyed by what a heinous bitch i’m being lately but i cant help it ugh im just so full of *teen angst* and shit
“…On tuesday I got the call, that damn phone call I’d been bracing for all week. No, don’t say it. I watched her crawl in bed with you, I watched her wet your lips and couldn’t do a God damned thing, I watched you shake, I watched our hearts break, I couldn’t wrap my fingers around your spine and shake it loose from the bone, I couldn’t fight against the loss, I never set fire to your bed, I never burnt the bed sores, I never ate the flame, or drank the sweat, but if it burns me up I won’t char half as much as I’ll keep warm. Life goes on because it has to, these things, they never leave, they stay with you, the smell of the viewing, your friends singing your praises, the flower boot that never bloomed until we lost you, the first Christmas we suffered through, room 211, kissing your head, the last look into your eyes, not having the words to say thanks.”
—‘Spine’ by Pianos Become The Teeth (via aeloquence)
October 2011
“While I was girl of the year and superstar and all that crap, everything I did was really…motivated by psychological disturbance. But I’d, I’d make a mask out of my face because I didn’t realize I was quite beautiful…I had to wear heavy black eyelashes like bat wings and dark lines under my eyes. Cut all my hair off, my long dark hair, cut it off and strip it silver and blond. All these little manoeuvres I did out of things that were happening in my life that upset me.I’d freak out in a very physical way, and…it was all taken in a fashion trend.”
—edie sedgwick
